Bohemian Ray of Sunshine

Wish I could tell you that I still miss you but; I don't have any more answers. Just like you, I have the same questions, clenched tightly in my fists. Wish I could read you my poems to hear your cheers. Bike around with you behind me scared to break a leg. I still love you the same way- but different courses. Just like the first time we met, We sort of just clicked. Sometimes I feel you longing and tell my siblings how great that time was!  It's still great, greater but ... There was for sure- something between us. The way be clicked, The way things glided, It was smooth. Never as rugged as today. But yes I miss you. The space between us is healthy but deadly. I smile whenever I think of you Do you too? For I wish I could tell you that I miss you. (probably not to be continued)   (pc- Pinterest)

I miss sharing songs, being your mom, sis, bff, all at the same time. I miss the way you made me feel, the person you transformed me into. I miss your warmth and your tender cold fingertips. I didn't like holding hands; yes! you were an exception. Wish I could tell you that I miss you, writing muses for you and scaling our heights while you struggled resting your elbow over my shoulders. I miss looking at your face crowed with pimples and silliness. Like a small child you stuck with me  through all times. Wish I could tell you that I miss the times we fought over who'd pay next and then choosing the flavour of chips to taste next. I miss the telepathy we shared and the synchronisation we felt. I miss you- or atleast a part of you. Feels like hugging you with salty numb eyes & not releasing my grip. Wish I could tell you that I miss you. I dreamt of you last fortnight. In a parallel universe, we were still together. You asked me to stay, and I stayed. You told me to not leav...

 I miss sharing songs, being your mom, sis, bff, all at the same time. I miss the way you made me feel, the person you transformed me into. I miss your warmth and your tender cold fingertips. I didn't like holding hands; yes! you were an exception. Wish I could tell you that I miss you, writing muses for you and scaling our heights while you struggled resting your elbow over my shoulders. I miss looking at your face crowed with pimples and silliness. Like a small child you stuck with me  through all times. Wish I could tell you that I miss the times we fought over who'd pay next and then choosing the flavour of chips to taste next. I miss the telepathy we shared and the synchronisation we felt. I miss you- or atleast a part of you. Feels like hugging you with salty numb eyes & not releasing my grip. Wish I could tell you that I miss you. I dreamt of you last fortnight. In a parallel universe, we were still together. You asked me to stay, and I stayed. You told me to not le...

Wish I could tell you that I miss you, whenever it's 3 am I think of our highest record, talking endlessly-  wirelessly. I remember the time crying over your tiny scapula happy to share with you hollowed secrets of mine, uprooted from the deepest grave. Wish I could tell you that I miss you whenever I see us in polaroids- that same room which used to echo with our giggles didn't belong to me anymore. I see the same faces, worried, Do they hate me now? Behind the innocent confused subtle smile, I wish I could tell you that I dream of home where I no longer belonged. Wish I could tell you that I miss  the spark in those golden brown eyes. I enjoyed the looks you gave when I messed up your curly cascade hairs. I miss listening to your chaotic life's dramas. from the boy who flirted to how somebody misunderstood you, again; As I was your instant solution remedy. Wish I could tell you that I miss  your presence in the dim room of mine- where we laid with our shadows forecasted...